soberjourney's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Great Day Today was a great day. I'm in a great mood and seem to have really made an impact. I had a craving about 8:30, and thought immediately of the impact of just one beer and what that would do to me, short term and long term. One day at a time. 11:15 p.m. - 2007-05-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- One Day At A Time I've been having really good days. But I've been having some odd dreams lately. One didn't involve alcohol, but a close friend. The other did involve alcohol. I'm really doing well in all aspects, and mate has told me that I'm doing great, but I just need to keep doing it. One day at a time in ALL aspects! 8:46 a.m. - 2007-05-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Doing Well Things are going well. I've not wanted to drink, and I found a really good meeting here. I am getting a handle on the other issues I've had, and am realizing triggers and other sorts of issues. I've also looked back and how I acted as a teenager and what could have led up to the whole thing. It took me a while to get here, so one day at a time. One day at a time. 9:54 p.m. - 2007-05-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Back And Happy Glad I'm back! Things are going well. I'm growing in many ways. I don't feel a temptation to drink, but I do have some other temptations in my other addiction. However, I haven't acted on them. I'm just trying to be all that I can be and live one day at a time. That's all I can do, and all we can ask of ourselves! When I do see news reports of drunk drivers causing injury or killing people, again I think there but for the grace of God go I. And that's something to live for... 3:18 p.m. - 2007-05-07 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Assessment I had the assessment today for alcohol. It went well. I do have to have a 10 week course to fulfill the court obligation, but the therapist thought it was more "abuse" than "dependent". Last night in my meeting I went over triggers and realized that I have a form of relationship addiction as well. Why, I have no idea, but why anyone has addictions is beyond anything anyway. 12:51 p.m. - 2007-04-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Depressing Meeting Last night's meeting was hard. It wasn't an AA meeting - more of an NA meeting, but drugs are drugs and addiction is addiction, so I stayed. But I walked out of there all depressed because of the ages of some of the people. There were at least five teenagers there under 16 or so, already in a substance abuse 12 step program. At least they're getting help. But you wonder how many kids aren't getting help. 3:00 p.m. - 2007-04-26 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Good Session Today I had a very good session with my therapist today. We talked about how mate is now in Al-Anon, and how I've reduced cravings to almost nil for alcohol, and am working to not think about my other addiction by moving onto other items that make me happy. The court in Wisconsin has ordered me to have an alcohol assessment done on me, and I think I'll have to join a treatment group. I think I'll be OK. It's been over 60 days and I feel like I don't miss drinking. I just hope they don't ban coffee, water and soda. I should be fine. Peace to you and yours. 12:24 p.m. - 2007-04-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Good Week! This has been a good week for my sobriety. I haven't had too many cravings for alcohol and I have not been tempted by any other things. There's wine in the house because of a function we hosted, but it's white wine and that's not a temptation for me. Mate and I had a nice chance to talk last night and we're both trying. We're both open and honest and hopefully we'll get through this patch. Thanks for all of the kind support. 8:24 p.m. - 2007-04-21 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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